Update.

I won. Yes, I won. I finally stood up for myself and now that mess of a relationship is overwith. Thank Jesus.

Now, I unfortunately have bigger fish to fry. Is that how the saying goes? Whatever. It just sucks how two people click but they can't be together. Well, I don't know if I should say together. Let's just go with friends. People are so close minded, but hey I was too before this happened. I find that people should walk in the other's shoes for a while before they judge. Easier said then done. Whatever, this will be some experience. Hey, life is all about the learning experience, isn't it? Well then, I guess this will be a HUGE learning experience. I'm down for a change in my life.

Quote of the day: "So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be." - Perks of Being a Wallflower

It's been a while.

Woah, have not done this in quite sometime.

I felt like shit today. I definitly did something to my hamstring. That's a kick in the balls. And my throat feels like ....shit. I'm not having a good go this week.


I guess I just need to type. About whatever. Here goes. I hated art in school. I don't know why. Maybe because I really sucked at it and it seemed like everyone else was good. But they weren't just good at art. OH no, they were good at sports and were smart. What did I have? Healthy vocal chords and an ok dance background. I guess I feel like I'm mediocre at whatever I do. I just want to have one thing that I do really well.

Sorry, just had to get some things out.

Anywho, the quote of the day "love the life you live, live the life you love" - bob marley

Sick and Tired

I don't know if I can take it anymore. I deserve much better. I know I do but it's just tough. I don't know what to do. I don't think I'm in the wrong. I'm so confused. What else can I do? It seems like I've done most of the work. No, I HAVE done most of the work. Maybe one day he will realize.

Quote: "And there wasn't anything wonderfully amazing about him, but there was something that she just couldn't resist."

Wow, long time.

Something just doesn't seem right. I don't know what it is. Maybe I do. I just wish you were easier to read.

"Breaking Up" is going pretty good. Everyone has loved it so far. Tonight was not my best, but I really tried. I don't know what was wrong with me. Oy.

Anyway, the quote for the day: "When I see you, the world. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much. I can live in it, but I don't like it. I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you." - A Million Little Pieces

Good week.

Oh man, I wish I could remember everything about tonight. The right words were said, and now I really know how he feels. I feel great.

Opening weekend was a success. A FUCKING SUCCESS. I think we'll start bringing in the masses. Hopefully.

Quote of the day: "He smiled understandingly—much more than understandingly. It was one of those rare smiles with a quality of eternal reassurance in it, that you may come across four or five times in life. It faced--or seemed to face--the whole external world for an instant, and then concentrated on you with an irresistible prejudice in your favor. It understood you just as far as you wanted to be understood, believed in you as you would like to believe in yourself, and assured you that it had precisely the impression of you that, at your best, you hoped to convey."

Finally.

Don't you just love it when things start to click? I'm very content right now, and it feels great. I can't fucking WAIT for prom!

And of course, now I have nothing else exciting to type. I mean, we're almost seniors but that's not exciting til next year.

Anyway, quote of the day: "Take him and cut him out into little stars and he will make the face of heaven so fine that all the world will be in love with night." - Romeo & Juliet

Valid.

"It was more than love for him. It was the feeling she got every single time his name was said, or when he brushed by her in the hall or held her hand. He was the boy she changed for, the boy she would have dropped anything and everything just to spend a night with him. He was always at the center of her world; but she couldn't seem to grasp the concept that she was never the center of his."