Spring Break has begun....

And I have a feeling it will suck. I'm going to try to look on the bright side of things. I definitly will try.


I don't know what the hell is wrong. One minute I'm happy and the next I'm not doing so hot. I wish I could just go with the flow. Sometimes I do, except when it comes to someone. Then I expect so much. Maybe too much. I don't know if I'm just settling or what. It's just for once I know what I want, but what I want doesn't necessarily want me. Just my luck. And so we try for the third time.

Theatrically, things are going pretty well. I get to finally play a role that wouldn't normally be my typecast.

I find I'm not caring so much about anything anymore. Only certain things. And the certain things I care about shouldn't necessarily be worth me caring about, if you get my drift. I'm just exhausted and I want at least a day to do what I want to do. Not that I don't want to do theatre. Or rehearsals. I always look forward to rehearsal. Well, certain rehearsals. It's other things that I want to give up. I want more time with my friends. I want more time with my family. I feel like I'm not free. I'm always waiting for other plans. Bigger plans. Better plans. I always depend on one person. It's like they have control over me. I said I wouldn't feel this way, but it's hard to control. I want to get out of it before I get too attached. Maybe I already am. Should I get out of it? Am I just settling?

Quote of the day: "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." - John Lennon